7.23.2004
|9:57 pm|
Thanks for your support, my blog has reached a milestone of 200 visiting time, thanks for all who took time to read my pathetic blog, really happy... Never know people do read my stuff, I am not trying to get pity from you all but they are just some words of frustration and helpless..
Thanks for the teachers who keep reminding me that exam is around the corner because I thought I was still having holiday!!!! But time flies, 2 years going to end soon and everyone is working very hard to get their A's. Though Ms Yeo kept nagging and scolding us, I knew that she was very concerned about us and it should be time for some emergencies call to wake us up... We upsetted Ms Ho alot and I really did not mean it, I am trying hard to follow the methods that she had given but it just can't work, maybe a few more practices will see some better results.
Bumpy bumpy road, never knew my 2 years can be so experiencing, at least I see the true faces of what you call the society.. And sometimes, I find that being kind to people does not pay, they will only find you easy to be bullied and order you to do all those stuffs that they don't want to do... People can be so cruel until I really want to cry it out, I never give those irritating face to them and yet they did it to me. Always hearing people say that if you love someone, just pluck your courage and tell that person. That person will be very happy and someone likes her? Nono.. to my horror, I found out that if that person don't like you, they will just avoid you or give you the face to ask you to go away... So sad, now I also know why sometimes when a couple broke up, the chances of being friends again is 0.00001% .. If this is really the truth, I might as well be monk, isn't it be better... I am really tired of these stuffs and will really hate myself.
Hate myself for being ugly, being fat, not lame enough, not clever enough... Just take a chopper and chop off my head please, omg... being sensitive also kills me...
Reality is really still far off from dream... and maybe I should just stop dreaming on these things because you won't get it.. Everyone can get it but I will still not able to get it..
Pathetic, pathetic, don't make me hate girls!!!!! Really very happy that my dear has given me so much of encouragement and cheering me up, if not I really think that nice girl don't exist anymore..
To Siwei, I know that you are facing a tough decision at this point of time, it is really sad to see you lose the smile that you used to have... I just want to tell you, no matter how bad the situation is, there is a nice pal who live next block who will help you get through the difficult times.. Smile!!!!
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