World of KaNgKaNg

JOBS!!

2007-03-28T12:24:00.001+08:00

4 more months to uni and yet I am still jobless!! How to pay my school fees haha. Apply so many jobs and yet the only one who replied asked me whether I know Microsoft Access!! Of all, access.. the only one which I don't know.
Actually I am ok with being jobless, maybe it's another good chance to train up my body and look like a spartan haha. I do hope to take part in some of the marathon at the end of year, so I better start training now, if not how to complete them.
If you got any good job to recommend me, do give me a call bah and I will give you a treat on my pay day. It's a deal so ciao!!

Reflection

2007-03-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

After watching Ren Ci charity show 07, I can only say, I really need to do some self reflection. Sometimes, we ourselves, find excuses for our own mistakes and never admit it. Because of your own "face" problem or just it is the nature of human.
Many of a time when I faced with a problem, I would try to escape from the fact or just simply run away from the problem. But why? Isit really that difficult to solve or simply my mentality is not strong enough. Doing charity is from our own heart, yet we are slowly evolving into a point where I will only donate if I can see shows. Indeed, when problems never happen on yourself, you can never feel the pain. But if you give it a deep thought, you will find that problems can be solved if you have tried to tackle it earlier. Yet people are just giving never ending excuses. If you had watched the show, you will know that, no matter how hard the challenge is in front of you, all you need is just take a step at a time, you can still reach your aim eventually. The process may be long, but the result is fulfiling. This is the type of achievement which you can never experienced unless you conquer it.
So, rather than running away from problems, I hope I can conquer each obstacle which is in front of me and I truly believe our mind is very strong and can overcome any problem ahead of us, all we need to do is believe in your own self. Trust me! Do reflect.

专属天使

2007-03-11T16:31:00.000+08:00

This is the Eng Version of the song 专属天使　by Tank from the TV Serial 花样少年少女, hope you will like it.

专属天使

Never say goodbye

Would you tell me why

Look into my eyes

You say you can't be mine

I dazed into the sky

No matter how I try

I realise my dreams are so high

Never wanna cry

Yet I cannot hide

Always by your side

Helping you through the tide

When everything is fine

You dumped me like a toy

Swallow my pride

Just hope you can be mine

*Chorus:

When there is nothing mean much more than you

The way you smile

Will make my day

No one can replace

When there is one day you will say I do

I promise you

With all my life

That I will love you till the day we die

I hope I can fly

Fly you to the sky

Walking down the aisle

Is the best of my life

So please don't say goodbye

Because tears have run dry

If without you I doubt I can survive

*Back to chorus

You walked into my life

And then you leave me behind

Is that how you treat me

All that you say were lies

*Back to chorus

Kids

2007-03-03T16:47:00.000+08:00

2 months of relief teaching had gone and I had only one conclusion, that is kids are so different nowadays....
To my students reading this, do not feel angry about it, because this is from my observation. For my other friends, hope you can go down to your secondary school and have a look and see whether you have the same consensus as me.
Firstly, let me comment on their behaviour. From sec 1 to sec 5, the proper manner in them is no where to be found. Basic greetings, courtesy, all these are some of the qualities things no longer with them. Just take for example, in class, I needed to stare at them for 5 mins before they realised that they need to greet me and so they greeted me---- in their seats!! Ok fine, as long they did greet me. Then, as I was about to start my lessons, students started to go toilet, chatting and doing their homework. So I kept silence for awhile hoping they will give me their attention but to my surprise, NO!! Getting more and more frustrated, I began teaching. After teaching towards the end of lesson, then they would tell me: " Cher, I do not understand what you mean, can repeat everything again!" I was glad that the floor was not red in the end. The best part was that the students who asked me to repeat were those who were chatting.
Secondly, if you think the vulgarism you had experienced in the past were abundant, try the students now. I got a student whose vocabulary in vulgar was much better then her english. Some of the vulgars I heard were only those that should be used in army!!! And to encourage multi racial, the chinese used malay vulgars, malay used hokkien vulgars and indians used english vulgars. And they are not remorseful for the usage of the words. No wonder our english standard is constantly dropping.
Lastly, I think the students nowadays are joining the disabled society because most of them got hearing problem. Ever try standing at the rear of the bus? Now I doubt you will have a chance to stand there. Reason is that these kids practically become deaf upon hearing the driver requesting them to move to the rear and they will just stare blankly and act as nothing happens. Poor me, I had to force to wait for the next bus when actually the bus can take another 10 more passengers. Sometimes I am wondering why the students are so smelly nowadays, but now I know why, because they had become part-time fishmonger!!
To my students, do not give me the same excuses for not handing up your work, because Singapore is encouraging creativity, so I hope next time when it is time to hand up your work, you can give me reasons like I accidentally put my paper with the newspaper and sold it to the garang guni, maybe I will give you 5 more marks for your next test, maybe....

Relief

2007-02-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I ask myself, what am I searching for in my life, am I enjoying what I am doing now. In the end, I could not give myself an answer.
I keep telling myself I want to start my own business but when others ask me what business I want to do, I say I don't know. How can I start my own business when I do not know what business I am heading into.
My friends always say teaching is the easiest way to earn quick money why? Because the working hours are short yet the pay is quite good. The passion is there, I am trying my very best to teach well. I know sometimes I cannot explain the topic well, that's why I am trying different ways so that the students can understand what I am talking. The response I got back from my students were chatting, playing, sleeping. I tried to contain my anger, but there is always a limit to everything and they are really testing my limit.
I am still glad to see some students who are not strong in maths but still trying their best to do their work, it makes me more willing to help them to overcome the problem. I don't mind giving remedial but if you are not committed to do my work, what's the point of me explaining the whole thing over again.
It's fine if you find me naggy because only this way I can try to motivate you all to study harder and not regret your actions. Soon, you will not see me, so prepare to pop a few bottles of champagne for my departure, CHEERS!!

Me

2007-02-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

Finally my days in army has gone. On 7th Nov 2006, I have been declared freedom, what a special day for me and my friends. ORD!! Leaving army with quite a heavy heart indeed, this camp leave me with some fond memories especially my days as a mess boy. I am very grateful for what my CSM had helped me. Without him, I doubt I can leave the camp in one piece!!
Guess what, my first plan of all was to lose WEIGHT! YES! I had gained mass horizontally and reaching a whooping 76.5kg. So my plan was to shed some weights so that no one can say I am fat anymore. It was very depressing when everyone who walked past you try to squeeze your stomach and kept telling you that you are getting fatter everyday.
The hard days for losing weight had finally finished, and I am very proud to announce that my current weight is69kg. Indeed, this is very encouraging for me and for everyone who is interested in losing weight. If you need help, do find me and I will try my best to help you trim down!
Also, I had been working as a relief teacher at.... my ex-sec sch HONGKAH SEC, I was so excited upon hearing that I will be teaching there, because I missed this school alot, the teachers here were marvellous and I always want to try to help the school if I can. But never did I expect my relief teaching has become a nightmare for me, because I am a full time relief, meaning I will be teaching my classes maths.
My classes include 4N1, 4C and 2N3, I guess 3 classes are enough to create problem for me haa.
This is my analysis for these 3 classes:

4N1 a.k.a my form class--Lots of malays and lots of girls, clever but lazy, not hardworking, a very fun class actually.
4C a.k.a my small class-- With just 26 students, life should be easier but not... Horrible attitude, arrogant look and lazy behaviour, but I am seeing improvement. GO 4C!
2N3 a.k.a my no big no small class-- Treat me like their friends, always run around, super noisy, very rebellious, enough to spoilt your day.

I am also helping my teacher in assisting my coach for badminton training
This is the analysis:

Sec 1 : Need to start from scratch
Sec 2 : The able to train group
Sec 3 : Think they are very good group
Sec 4 : Girls' Fan Club Group

Let's hope my sec 2 students will produce decent results next year after my hell training haha!!

I will post again soon, so I will wish all my friends a very happy CNY and cya soon... Yk signing off

Back

2007-02-19T20:56:00.000+08:00

After 1 and half year, I am back in this blogging world. Just want to thank my students for motivating me to start my blog again.

I will continue to post my songs here, while posting some of my stories with ya.

Back again

2005-06-19T22:34:00.000+08:00

It has been 3 months since I last blog haha... Guess there are more cobwebs on my blog more than my white hairs lol not funny....
Well, hi I am back!!! I am not aiming to be the blog of the month or what... Who cares whether my blog attracts attention, who cares whether there are more than 4000 people viewing my blog in a day, who cares whether I put any nude photos on my blog....
Human are always curious about special things and love to spread rumours around and this is why reporters have their jobs(trivial stuff...)
Anyway, I just feel like writing some words on my blog though i know my blog has been deserted by my friends.

Do you believe in change of luck? I seriously believe in it... Cause I had experienced that too. How can a person be down and out for so long? Luck has never really been my side for a year but suddenly my luck has come and I really feel very relieved. At least I believe in myself more and I know that luck can actually be the winning formula... Sometimes when luck comes, it comes in a bulk lol and it seems unstoppable. So isit good or bad? Good in a sense that it can brighten up your day. Bad in a sense that when will bad luck come again?
I feel lucky because no matter what ever things had happened around me, I had my family and friends. I may bring bad luck to them but they truly think that I am just over paranoid and bad luck just unable to invade fully into my life. I hope this is forever not that I am greedy, I just hope everyone around me is happy, then I will be happy too

BMT

2005-03-14T08:04:00.000+08:00

After long absence.... I am back... in one piece!!! Lazy to blog haha
But since I have POP( passing out), let me recall the life in BMT

1st week

Just fresh enlistees, so we were given a honeymoon period
No push ups, no tekan, no guard duties... We were just assuming that was life in Tekong....

2nd week

Learn some basic lessons such as some PT training, BCCT, lectures
Punishments have arrived...

3rd week

Pre field camp.. Thus a lot of preparation, and a short trail to the forest to learn about the different type of wire which can ward or slow down enemies attack
I knew that there is a wire that is not called constantine but concertina wire haha
Also we learnt about the camouflage... Whole face full of green and black and go into the forest to pluck leaves and branches to consume ourselves.. Then we were told to go inside the forest and hide and make sure we will not get caught by enemies....

4th week

Hell week arrived, we learnt how to squash a whole towel , with admin shirt and shorts into a small ziploc bag.... Time for field camp!!!! A long walk to the campsite and many fallout because they could not adapt to this type of walk.... Punishment began. We were told to build our basha tents, but on one condition---standardizing. every tent must be aligned if not have to re pitch again.... After hard sweat, it was done, we were told to wrap up our barang barang into the tent and our education tour began...
For more information, please read my previous postings.....
Leopard Crawl rulez!!!

5th week

The most happy week because it was new year so we cannot get much punishments

6th week

Rifle range lol, the most fun part of bmt, 3 days of outfield activity at the 100m range.... We got to shoot real rounds, shiok arh... Want to learn any position? Proning, foxhole, kneeling/squating, standing shoulder ... Night shoot the best cos I am better at them, illum target , flashing target..... Snap target watch your front......

Friday we went to throw possibly the one and only grenade throughout the whole life. The impact was .... impressive... I recruit blahblah nric no. right masterhand no sweaty palm, is asking permission to enter the bay.... Safety ring twist, safety ring pull, safety pin out... grenade prepared and ready to throw... GRENADE, 1000,2000......6000 boooom!!!! Cool huh... Too bad that's the one and only one chance..

7th week

SIT test, a test to determine whether you can go OCS or not
We had to walk 8km before reaching the campsite then walked further 4km to make up for the 12km... 1st day was just lectures and distribution of work... Some tekan because the sergeants were too bored..
2nd day we had to walk 4km fast march , tiring but shiok... then we had our missions to carry out, fun missions but the process sucks... Incoming, incoming.... contacted.. arti lifted.... ARTI, ARTI, ARTI then run like siao then do leopard along the road, plus sniper.. wah they had to carry me on stretcher so paiseh... missions ended early because got forest fire... then we were told to prepare a performance for O.C night... I must agree the performance was superb and we were basically the best.. 3 cheers for Sir fatley and Fafiz!!! A great night and we were expecting more the following day.. Day 3, more missions but failed all then we were sent back by tunnel
Reach at 6pm but we had to clean our rifle!!!!! till 11pm, really very dirty... yucks the sand....

Then friday we had to walk the 16km route march, can walk if there is no blisters!!! blisters till i cannot walk and it is just the beginnning....
Sat we had SOC, doing the low ram maybe bcos of the blisters i cannot run way so i jump improperly and ... sprain ankle... painful sia, walked home crippled...

8th week

Nothing much, just doing the Basic Assault Course where you have to back crawl in the mud water... Then A level results.....

9th week

Alot of rehearsal for the graduation parade, and the main event of the bmt, the 24km route march.... Long sia.. walked from 3pm to 12+ midnight, of cos include rest and dinner, new blisters again haiz....
Next day got SOC, i never do cos i scare sprain my ankle again...
Wednesday was POP yeah.... book out in joy

Field camp

2005-02-06T09:47:00.000+08:00

Back from field camp
Completely shagged..~~!!!!
Although this 7 days seemed quite short to you, it has somehow been hell for me, not the kind of camp I wanted...

Day 1

Miss the road march cos I am excuse from doing it... Many fall out bcos the distance was too long
Then we pitched a basha tent there at campsite 1-- rubber tree plantation area..
Day1 was ok except that we need to pitch the tent a few times....

Day 2

A Sunday..... we began to get the taste of LEOPARD crawl... getting excited then you try it yourself... We also learn to listen to info.... blahblah top secret
Basically alot of lessons

Day 3

Afternoon, we got to move to the next campsite-- Oil palm plantation area....
Finally able to cook own food , but we never cos we don't want to do extra washing...
We learn to be quiet at night lol, we walked past another company campsite and some of the people didn't know we were there

Day 4

Early in the morning, we got punished for being to slow and was forced to leopard crawl
Then the rest of the day is about all the movements such as FCO...
A rather good day bcos we got fresh food....and a bath haha

Day 5

We got to shoot blank rounds finally, though it was nothing much but it was actually fun if never I.A.....Afternoon we move off to another campsite....
Around 7 pm, we reach there. the reclaimed land area
Nothing much, but we just got to sleep on a groundsheet without any cover on top.... insects attack

Day 6

The day where we would go shagged cos it was trench digging DAY!!!
From morning to afternoon, we would have to dig our own "coffin"
called the shellscrape, we would be proning inside when the enemy attack
From afternoon to night, whole section would have to dig a fire trench and everyone was shagged fully, amazingly, there was no reverly for the next day

Day 7

Japan bomb Singapore....
At around 6.50 am thunderflash exploded and we all got shocked and woke up and prone in our own shellscrape, then we ran our life to gather , but we were scolded for being slow again and kana pumping like siao....
then we were given 30 minutes to cover up the shellscrape and firetrench....!!!!! tiring you know!!!
Then we went for our movement test...
I was kana scolded like shit there bcos I was not doing things quite correctly and I am really very upset by that, I made the whole section suffered
Then we walked to SISPEC area where we did our BIC, where we will have to back crawl and leopard for a distance of 80m through the wires and live firing.... In the end I got plenty of injury around the elbows and kneecap, not including the cuts I got when we leopard crawl in the bushes....
Then we marched back to our company line
We were given 30 minutes to clean our rifle but we took 1 hr so we were liked rushing like sia as we were given 30 minutes to clean our up, pack our stuff and clean up the area..
As fastcraft is moving .... we chiong like siao for it bcos if we missed that, we would be "confined" till the next day.. fortunately we made it and home sweet home....

Lose some weights so it is good, but if the sergeants kept tekan us, we would really cry arh....

Slack

2005-01-23T14:29:00.000+08:00

Going to camp soon lol
Very soon I am going to field camp soon
But dunnoe whether I can go or not...

On 21st Fri , it was supposed to be a good holiday because I can go out with friends but in the end no one went out with me except yizong who went to buy CDs with me

On 22nd Sat, the botaks outing at Beach Rd lol, everyone was scrambling for stuff that the platoon sergeant asked us to buy... Manage to find a stall where we can cut the price about 50% lol, I dunnoe why too... But the feeling was good
Then met up with Kwoksiong, wesley they all at Orchard and jus walk around and crap
Then went to Coffee Bean to drink a glass of Raspberry Tea Latte, taste was okay but dunnoe why they say it sucks
Then went to watch soccer, and the jinx continue as everytime I watch them play, they will lose, just dunnoe why....
It was supposed to be a sweet nite but in the end it just nvr happened

If the rumours were true then I should be able to be back again this week if not we will be "confined" because of the field camp, gotta pack things now so cya soon

NS

2005-01-21T10:42:00.000+08:00

I am back from ns haha
Let me give you some facts in tekong

1) The shit theory:
When a recruit got into trouble, he would throw the shit at the highest position which is the
C.O , then C.O will throw the shit with his own shit at the O.C, the P.C will get the shits and he will throw it at the P.S accompany with his own shit, then P.S will throw the shit at the sergeants and the sergeants will throw every single shit back at you and you got alot of shit....

2) The papaya theory:
In the camp, try not to say yah to anyone who is higher rank than you, if not he will reply yah yah papaya and you will kana... finish drawing 100 papayas and hand to him.... you sure won't get constipation...

3) The water theory:
When we have water parade, we usually drink half or full bottle.... the theory behind it, do not leave any single trace of water on the floor or you are in for it.... But what did the sergeants told us to do when we cleared up the water collection point... Pour all the water in the metal dispenser away in the drain....

4) The bird shit theory:
Better march properly because they will complain even a single mistake and will comment your stamping of boots are like bird shits... without any coordination... Also , our boots can use as spade too because the sergeants always say dig your boots in.....

5) The clock theory:
Tekong's clock and watch seem to be alot faster and the recruits always suffer because the sergeant will say you have 1 minute to fall onto the road and you have 30 seconds left......

6) The pumping theory:
This is what I call the no punishment pumping..... When the sergeant told you to pump 20...
When you say too soft, they will say start and zero and by right you should shout one but by left you must shout zero..... And when they say start from minus 10, when you have done 10 push ups, you should reach zero and that is when he will say, see I only give you zero pushups, I am so good to you all...

7) The Highway theory:
By right a highway should be crowded with cars but there is one unique highway which has more soldiers than cars and possibly the only highway you can walk freely on... That is the tekong highway... Maybe Singapore should have more of this type of highway then the pollution will not have been so bad.. Rocky rules!!!

Hope you all will like it haha
Won't tell you about my life in ns but from the facts you should know lar...

NS

2005-01-07T13:13:00.000+08:00

This is the last night at my house typing my final blog before I go in NS
Friends ask me whether I am excited
I am but accompanied with abit of sadness
Time to be independent
Been too reliance and granted for things easily
It will be a new life in there
New friends, new training, new learning space and a new beginning
But don't worry I will adapt to it as fast as I can
My friends told me that I will be lonely in the camp if I don't have any girlfriend
But if I have a girlfriend, how will I bear to let her be alone outside
Let the pain put on me better than on the girlfriend wasn't it a better option
Even though I can't talk to "girlfriend" at night, I got a lot of friends I can talk to
I will not be lonely haha
Just shave my hair just now
Look cool and I hope the life inside will be cool too even though the training can be demanding at times
I hope my blog visiting number can reach 1000 before I go in but doubt can lar
Do come to my blog often and I hope 2 wks plus later, it has reached the target
Thanks for your support and hopefully I can bring you better songs in the future
I sign off with my final song so take care my friends

Stephanie Sun's 同类　（English Version)

Looking at the sky, I just wonder why
Is there anyone, who can share my sorrow
As the time flies past, I just can't forget
Hoping you were there, to watch the sunset and gaze the stars

You, walked right past me, n'ver turn and look at me
Love, always not sweet, the phobia never cease
Dream, always a dream, sometimes
I really hope that that the world would never turn again

Time, would not wait for, anyone that who is slow
Heart, once it's broken, you can never mend it back again
You can't turn back time, once it's gone it's gone
Even you regret, there's nothing that can change the fact
Daladalala......

You, walked right past me, n'ver turn and look at me
Love, always not sweet, the phobia never cease
Dream, always a dream, sometimes
I really hope that that the world would never turn again

Time, would not wait for, anyone that who is slow
Heart, once it's broken, you can never mend it back again
Do not remember the past, just walk and don't look back
Love is by my side, yet the fate unknown
I know I will wait, for you even though that you turn old

I love you

2005-01-01T13:15:00.000+08:00

S.H.E 我爱你　（2nd English Version)
In memory of the natural disaster

It came so fast and no one knows
The day has turned to night
It was supposed a paradise
For us to take a break
The sea was so calm and so clear
But yet it became the silence killer

Tell me why, how could you,
Separate families and homes
Tell me why, I don't know,
Why do you take away their souls...
And never returns

The pain had inflicted on us
Like the sword that pierce through heart
The yell, the scream and the cry
Could never savage the lost ones
The island has turned to atlantis
And what we could do was only to run

I love you, must be strong,
Never give up dream and hope
I love you, don't let go,
We will come and rescue you

Together we will fight and don't give up any hope

We'll tide through the storm, and battle the war
Don't you ever give up though time is ticking
Comon show your courage, stand up and fight for
Your love ones and your dream, must believe, hang on till the end
I love you

Tell me why, how could you,
Separate families and homes
Tell me why, I don't know,
Why do you take away their souls
I love you, must be strong,
Never give up dream and hope

(哪里都一起去，一起仰望星星，一起走出森林，一起品尝回忆一起误会妒忌，一起雨过天晴，一起更懂自己，一起找到意义，我爱你，我不要没有你，我不能没有你，绝不能没有你）

WHY

2005-01-01T01:07:00.000+08:00

When I thought I was encountering the worst time in all the my life
The natural disaster arrived
It arrived silently
It came silently and left silently
The silence...
A paradise turned into hell
No one was celebrating, everything was like a movie...a dream
The longest silence I had ever thought of
It was not Friday the 13
Yet it was worse
From a moment where everyone was suntanning and having fun
To a moment where everyone was motionless
Just that moment
It separated families
It destroyed homes
It demolished a nation
It changed the world
No one expected it
Everyone thought it was just a normal wave
How to run
Tell me
Nobody wants to end the year in pain, in sorrow
Yet it silently took away our happiness
It may have left
But the destructions it had done cannot be mend
Even the sky is raining
God is crying
Why did it happen
Why must the love ones be sacrifice
I wish it was me
If I could save everyone
I am willing to sacrifice
My death will not bring as much pain as it is now
WHY
Why must you do that to the world
When will there be world peace
Isit the end of human reign
Please bring peace to the world in 2005
Let the pain leave us forever
Protect us from harm
Let the world stay peacefully forever
Please....

2004

2004-12-23T20:44:00.000+08:00

I think the world will be better without my existence
My presence only bring pain and unhappiness to others
I don't mind being a clown but if I am a clown that didn't smile
I don't deserve to be one
I don't expect everyone to be nice to me but at least let me know that I am being part of it
Seeing so many suicide cases I just wonder why they did that
Cos they feel that their presence is not needed?
Or they feel that it is to relieve their own pain
When people say everyone has 2 sides like a coin
I agree but people don't look at both sides
They only believe what they see and what they assume
Assumption can kill, a word that may seem insignificant to you may hurt another person greatly
How i wish people can get closer to me and know me better and not just think that I am just someone who allows you to take adavantage of
My fren told me everyone has their ups and downs and a person cannot be always having their downs
I believe i am still sliding to a bottomless pit, maybe the downfall is just the beginning
Sometimes I just do not wish to face reality cos it is harsh
I tried my best but so what, the world is just too realistic
I am afraid of getting back to square one
You may say my ego is too high but this is the only way I can do to hide my disappointment
When you like someone, people always say tell him/her you like him/her, don't be afraid to get rejected but how many times can you say that? And how many times can you take the word rejected and try again
Loving someone is painful, why am I always the one to like someone and not the other way round
I am too tired of it
Call it phobia, sometimes when people envy you and call you bachelor, I call it phobia
the phobia of loving someone again cos you know if you get rejected again, your confidence will be dashed
Why must a person splash cold water on you when you are caught in the rain
Why a person must dash your hope when you are trying to work your way up again
Can't they just give you that bit of confidence, like a car may need petrol to work
A person need to have confidence
Maybe that person is me
Maybe I should not exist for 2004
Maybe I should go
Maybe...

I love you

2004-12-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

S.H.E 我爱你　(English Version)

Look at the face I don't know why
It's time to say goodbye
Open your eyes to see the sky, and feels the winter cry
Don't sleep anymore, I just don't care
You promise you will watch sunset with me

I love you, don't let go, you're my angel and my soul
I love you, and I do, I just want to be with you...
Protect you from harm

Maybe it's a test to challenge me
To see if my heart is true
Doesn't matter you forget me, just open your eyes look at me
I'll stay by your side, morning till night
Sing you a love song, a song of our own

I love you, must be strong, never give up and let go
I love you, don't you know, just have to hang on till the end

Together we will fight and don't give up our dream
We'll tide through the storm, and battle the war
Don't you ever give up though time is ticking
Comon show your courage, stand up and fight for
Our future and our dream, I believe, true love and promise
I love you

I love you, don't let go, you're my angel and my soul
I love you, must be strong, never give up and let go
I love you, don't you know, just have to hang on till the end

（哪里都一起去，一起仰望星星，一起走出森林，一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌，一起雨过天晴，一起更懂自己，一起找到意义，
我爱你，我不要没有你，我不能没有你，绝不能没有你）

花

2004-12-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

From Michael Learns To Rock-- You Took My Heart Away(Chi Version)

镜子好像在看我
举棋不定在角落
不知怎么做取舍
庸人自扰又为何
唱着烦人歌

红色玫瑰心带刺
却是上天的赏赐
情人节里少了它
就像咖啡没加糖
味道。。真苦啊

我的心因为他
让我忘了害怕
有了他的存在，世界变得很大
不管他身在哪
就算天涯海角
我也会永远在他身旁

你像蒲公英飞翔
好想停在手心上
风一吹就消失了
这么近却又抓不牢
或许缘未到

我的心因为他
让我忘了害怕
有了他的存在，世界变得很大
不管他身在哪
就算天涯海角
我也会永远在他身旁

樱花盛开
花瓣撒落空中
春去秋来
错过了明年才会开

我的心因为他
让我忘了害怕
有了他的存在，世界变得很大
不管他身在哪
就算天涯海角
我也会永远在他身旁

我也会永远在他身旁
我也会永远
我也会永远在他身旁

pain

2004-12-12T22:12:00.000+08:00

after many of the songs i guess i shld write something before no one supports my blog

tmr morning will be my first physio session, i dunnoe what will we be doing but i know that i am very worried
this injury has been bothering me for 9 months already, seeing people enjoying their sports game and playing competitively, i am absolutely sad... unable to compete at my highest level was my regret for the year. I have been enduring with this pain and it just won't go away, the pain can be persisting, it can come and go, i cannot know when it will come. When it come, i will feel very painful... finally i seek proper treatment and the doctor say my shoulder blade has problem and i am relieved at last because i know what is the problem..
I really wish to be active in sports especially badminton and gym but i just could not do it at my optimum ability, i am sure i will be receiving my treatment even during my ns time and hopefully the officers will be understanding..
This is an injury that will not 100% recover, the implications i will know it when i grow older
Sometimes i just wonder why am i so unlucky to have this type of injury even though i have plenty of warm ups, tough luck, just not meant to be
It is now hindering my training for pre-ns and i guess i will be victimise when i go tekong
Hopefully everything will be just fine..

Who Do I Love?

2004-12-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

The Moffatts-- Who Do You Love

你在哪
我寻觅这么久了
双手还是抓不到。。。爱情
在的时候
我只是把你当做一个好朋友
普通的朋友

起飞的那一刻
才知很爱你

Who do I love?
Who do I need?
少了你在左右
我失去了自我
Who do I love?
What do I feel?
那空虚的心灵
没人能代替

不知道将来会发生什么事情
但是现在能做的还有很多
我明白
我心只有你
心只有你

转过身
才发现缺点根本不会让你不。。。完美
那甜美的微笑
让我像雪人在太阳下溶化掉
温暖我心房

有谁能办得到
你让我知道

Who do I love?
Who do I need?
少了你在左右
我失去了自我
Who do I love?
What do I feel?
那空虚的心灵
没人能代替

不知道将来会发生什么事情
但是现在能做的还有很多
我明白
我心只有你

Who do I love?
Who do I need?
少了你在左右
我失去了自我
Who do I love?
What do I feel?
那空虚的心灵
没人能代替

不知道将来会发生什么事情
但是现在能做的还有很多
我明白
我心只有你

别走

2004-12-05T14:15:00.000+08:00

My chinese version of Hoobastank-The Reason

当你离开的那天
我失魂落魄，不知所措
你说我不够爱你
我全心全意，难道是我错
分手那么容易就说出口
你转身倒头就走

为何要让我难过
你怎能说走就走
一句解释都没有说
当做没发生过

如果你不再爱我
那山盟海誓又算是什么
要是我有什么错
你告诉我，我一定去改过
只要你不玩得那样过火
不然我真不想活

为何要让我难过
你怎么说走就走
一句解释都没有说
当做没发生过(X4)

我不是那么完美
但我的真心诚意应足够
请不要这样轻易就放手
让我们再从来过

为何要让我难过
你怎么说走就走
一句解释都没有说
当做没发生过

要我过得洒脱
该放手就该放手
如果缘分已走到尽头
至少我曾经爱过

The Reason

2004-12-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

My version of Hoobastank-The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
Didn't know how to ask her out for a date
And chances just slip pass by
I only dare to see her from afar
Hoping she will turn around to look at me
But that day has never come

There is no excuse from me
To say she's not meant for me
To win over her heart is not tough
I'll just have to work hard

Her friends say I have no chance
So please don't waste time and effort again
It's easy just to give up
But deep down my heart pain is killing me
The warmth in me can't melt her ice cold heart
Please tell me what can I do

There is no excuse from me
To say she's not meant for me
To win over her heart is not tough
I'll just have to work hard(x4)

I'm not a perfect person
But it doesn't mean that I can't fall in love
So do give me a chance to prove to her
And she will never regret

There is no excuse from me
To say she's not meant for me
To win over her heart is not tough
I'll just have to work hard

I cannot forget her voice
So special and she's so wonderful
I only want to be with her
From the day till the night

We will be strong

2004-11-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

SA students of only eighteen
We gonna have a party now
The year is coming to an end
We will be bidding farewell

We study for days and nights
And stress is killing us
Want to give up halfway but decide
To go on

We don't mind spending everyday
At the cafeteria chatting away
Or going out with good old friends
Drinking coffee and play some games
And we will be strong
We will go on

Moves so fast that 2 years had gone by
And friendship is so hard to find
We should treasure old times that we had
Once you lose it, it's no more

It's not always exams and DCs
It's saint's spirit that moves us along
Once a saint and always a saint
And it will remain long

We don't mind spending everyday
At the cafeteria chatting away
Or going out with good old friends
Drinking coffee and play some games
And we will be strong
We will go on
And we will be strong
We will go on

The love never dies
The love never ends
Know all of the things that make us who we are
We know that quarrels means nothing at all
Look back and maybe we will be wanting more

Moves so fast that 2 years had gone by
And friendship is so hard to find

We don't mind spending everyday
At the cafeteria chatting away
Or going out with good old friends
Drinking coffee and play some games
And we will be strong
And we will go on
And we will be strong
And we will go on

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
We don't mind spending everyday
At the cafeteria chatting away

Try so hard to say goodbye

From Maroon5 She will be loved which is playing in my blog, hope saints do love it.

er

2004-11-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

Back here though my exam end on monday...
Though my papers are nt there polished, at least i can finish the papers quite on time...
Hope ACC will get me to uni and i really hope that, i nvr ask for much, jus uni can liao
NS in jan8 quite sian lar, but hav to , will be missin sch day
dunnoe wat to write lar. jus watch out for my lyrics... can express my feelin better
!! aim to be a songwriter and write for stephanie haha
tata

Gone

2004-10-10T16:07:00.000+08:00

Never in my life i am feeling so stress.. stress because I am still not bucking up.. knowing what i want, i am still not doing anything to reach that goal... I am big ass and I knew now that computer itself is a big virus, it can help you and it can destroy you.. So to prevent myself from being destroyed, I am not using the computer for the next 1 month or so, see me online, you can come and whack me, just kill me... i have nothing left... all i left with is the glimmer of hope, the hope that i can avoid being addicted... pls help me!!!

Depress

2004-09-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

Prelim ended, results out... Not gd, as a matter of fact, it was quite bad...
How can it be so bad!!! Only 1 answer, there is no committment... The results had shown very clearly, there is a lack of content with depth and this was why the results was so bad... Don't push the blame on the papers because there were still people who could do very well. If you have studied hard, no matter how tricky the questions can be, they will still be able to be solved.
50++ more days left, not very long left seriously speaking, if there is still no hardwork, prepare to fail A level.. I know my maths can do it, jus need more practice to polish up the skill. For econs, keep writing is the key, since there is always complain on lack of time during exam, really need to absorb mrs lee power already.... As for chem, also practice, practice and practice... GP need alot of reading to be done, so that you can learn how to understand the passage well under a very short time... No time to remorse, no used looking back, only must fight till the end... Look like this blog gonna breed spiders soon, but hope you all won't mind, I will come back with lots of new songs

MATHS

2004-08-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

Back from 1st part of exam.. Seriously speaking, not really performing well... Maybe too cocky over maths, in the end all dunnoe how to do... Never in my life I had done so badly for maths, over confident and lack of practice is the thing and I somehow awake from the exam and seem to realise that I am in a crisis
2 more months to A level, not very long left seriously so I hope I can use 70% more of my energy to fight off this big exam and hopefully do well, so now I will stop blogging for while, thanks for your visit and I hope to bring you more surprise the next time you enter my blog

Backie~

2004-08-22T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm back! Sorry that past few days you all cant visit my blog, sorry abt it. Actually I also don't know what happen to my blog, it just appear blank. But luckily it has recovered. So must continue to visit my blog ok?

Prelims coming in 2 days time, so I won't be able to update my journal that often, anyway, wish u all all the best and gd luck for all of ur exam. Cheerios~

Napfa

2004-08-13T20:16:00.000+08:00

Liverpool,liverpool.... To think they sell Michael for such a cheap price, I might as well sell it to Chelsea, owen is not even worth a price of a defender!!!! To think Liverpool trained him into such a world class player, yet he choose to leave for a more lucrative deal... Bad move, but at least Baros can play more now...

A good day for me because after 2 years of hardwork, I can finally skip PTP!!!
I had passed my Napfa finally, a silver is what I obtained after many tries because I cannot pass my chin-ups.. finally can do 5 and will prevent myself from entering PTP... means I can train on my own yeah

10days to Prelim, haiz, time really can fly!!!
Hope everything will work out fine, though I expect it to be super hard!!!
Hope every subject will pass....

人生

2004-08-08T15:25:00.000+08:00

人生不如意事十之八九，事事难预料
人心难测，知人知面不知心
常怨天尤人？自暴自弃？
这就是人生
人的一生不会永远都是平坦的，当中的失败，挫折
都是很好的学习经验
人可能被某种失败而一蹶不振
人也可以被激励而重拾信心
人因挫折而成长
经一事，长一智
人往往把现实看的太完美
只有看到丑陋一面时，才恍然大悟
这是人生也是人性
人可以很虚伪，也可以很忠厚
现在所看到的一切可能是真也可能是假
真真假假其实只是一线之隔
真假难分或许就是这个道理吧
这世上的对与错其实也分不出来
现在或许是对的
但将来它的错与对还是个未知数
与其烦恼周遭的事，不如敞开胸怀
开开心心的过着每一天
凡是不在自己掌控之中的事
就别去理会了
因为开心是一天
伤心也是一天
为何选择伤心哪？
往远处的山上呐喊
听到的回音会模仿你
你骂它，它也会骂你
你赞它，它也会赞你
一个人的心情将影响周围的人
所以我们应该以愉快的心情过着每一天
把烦恼抛到九霄云外吧我的朋友

灭了

2004-08-06T23:53:00.000+08:00

不知不觉，又到了一个尽头
为何我总是那个，那个受了伤的人
是我愚蠢，是我笨
托付的信任，最后得到的是友人的讥笑
是我幼稚，是我好欺负
为何一次又一次伤了我的心！！！
我的心也会又碎的一天
我也有脆弱的一面
好人难当，人善被人欺
命运就这样被主宰？
我的痛有谁知
我的伤有谁懂
那一分鼓励是多么重要，可是我却得不到
我多么珍惜友谊，可是却得不到
我是多么想爱，却处处碰钉
心中的那道火光已经快灭了
就只盼那么一个能让我找回失去的信心的人
找回自我，从新出发

NDU

2004-08-06T14:00:00.000+08:00

Seriously speaking, i do not know what to write...
Today we had our National Day celebration.... It was quite boring, watching people playing games lol.... Fortunately, a guest performer arrived at SAJC and he was none other than ex- saint JJ Lin JunJie... Cool right, but quite disappointed because he only sing half of the national day song and left... It will be better if he stayed longer, lucky I had taken a few photos lol. Hard to see him coming to SA again...
Then went with my dear to have lunch then went home lor, writing blog now haha..

Now I will talk about the vocational assignment that I had on Tuesday
I reached Admiralty Mrt Station then went to mark attendance... Then we got to sit on the army "truck" quite cool to Sembawang Naval Base.... I talk it was just about navy stuff only, but to my horror, it was a call up for Naval Diving Unit(NDU).... Diving omg, ask me swim 100m I will die too, now ask me dive 10m down ... quite hard lar.

The medical checkup took up 3-4 hrs before we went to the Hyperbaric centre where we would go for a dry diving. It would take place in a chamber where the pressure will be adjusted similarly to a person down 10m depth... Quite ok... then have lunch, not bad but I hope I will not eat them everyday next time..

Then we went to a classroom to take a "SAT" test, it is to test your character and your IQ...
Another 3 hours gone... then we went down to do Chin-ups and Standing Broad Jump, quite bad for me lar... Next we went to the pool for a 50m Breaststroke... at 1m depth, my legs kept touching the ground, so gay....

When we thought it was about time to go home, he told us to go and eat dinner and we knew that it will be a long night for us.... Interview was the last item and it was super long for the waiting time and when it was my turn for the interview, the officer just told me that I must master swimming... Then nothing else really, die die.. The enlistment rate for NDU is very high, though getting into NDU after 6 months of Hell Training is very slim... It requires your determination and will to endure the training, 5 days of consecutive training with few hours of sleep at the 3rd day, then need to get tied up and throw into the pool.... Quite scary arh, that's why I am going to swim later so that I will not suffer that much if I ever get called up...

Reflection Day

2004-07-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

shall not let my blog stagnant too long... if not will hav mosquitoes....
Well, on thurs, we had a Service Learning Day where our class was assigned to clean the East Coast Park Beach with other classes, we were expecting lots of rubbish because we were Singaporeans lol. This is just a generalisation because I feel that we did not like our environment alot and it can be shown by the amount of litter found on the floor.
To my surprise, it was not very dirty... but alot of styrofoam board scattered around the grass... and we really heck care about it because it will take years before every small pieces of foam is cleared and we were shocked by Mr Koh request lol, asking us to pick up the foam because they would take years to be decomposed... We just picked those large ones and move on... Slacking
It was supposed to be 4 hours of CIP, in the end it just took 2 hours, guessed the teachers cannot take it anymore....
Then we had lunch at McDonald followed by an hour of pool... Not bad, then went home to sleep haha...

Today, failed Napfa again , stupid chin-up!!! I will get the silver in 2 weeks time...
It is the first time that our class has been so bonded because of certain matter and I am really glad about it, my class is not that dead after all....
Rush home before I went to swim, forced to because of the vocational assignment that need to report at Sembawang Naval Base on Tues... Lousy swimmer I am so hope everything will go fine... Then went to Lot1 to buy my Whey Protein, to let my "muscles" recover faster so that I can do more repetitions on weights, not cheap but I guess it will be good..

Feel like writing songs but with the music system down for good, quite boring lar, iwebmusic please return fast, my blog is very dead!!!

They can do it So can I

2004-07-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

Just came back from West Mall after watching F.I.R, it was scheduled at 7pm but due to "unforeseen" circumstances, they arrived at 8pm.. The band was cool and it was all worth while standing just to see them and listen to them singing Lydia and Fly Away. Faye was so pretty though it was far from where I stood. Her voice was amazing, no wonder whole shopping mall was crowded with F.I.R fan.
Reaching home to watch channel U show at 9pm. Adam Khoo was the person in focussed... I knew this person few years ago when he came to HongKah to give a talk, I had bought his bestseller I am Gifted So Are You.. Have not touched this book for a long time and after what he had said, I decided to read it up again.
His word really enlightened me... "Learn to say "No" when you have to, do not give in to temptation especially during exams period. You may eventually lose your friends because of your isolation but it does not matter because you will make new friends eventually.
Indeed, for the past 2 years I had given in to temptation and always try to go for any occasion when friends ask me to go because I don't want to lose my friends, but in the end, the fun and party won't bring me results. I really regretted for not studying hard for exams for the past 18 months, who will want EOO for their results.. I guess it is time I say no to people and let them hate me because I want to do well..
Maybe it is not the best way to do but time is running out for me, I have my goals and I want to achieve straight A's for my exams, let all people around me laugh at my ambitious aim, I don't care, I maybe getting F all the way now, but I know that only I myself can change it. I will prove to everyone that I CAN DO IT. So if you want to help me to achieve my aim, I am more than happy, if you just want me to party with you, Sorry, you have come to the wrong person..
If Adam Khoo can do it, so can I. If he can top the whole secondary and JC and become top 1% in NUS, so can I because we all have that special ingredient in us which we must discover how to work with this ingredient in order to make up a delicious dish where no one can make. Reach For The Stars

Milestone

2004-07-23T21:57:00.000+08:00

Thanks for your support, my blog has reached a milestone of 200 visiting time, thanks for all who took time to read my pathetic blog, really happy... Never know people do read my stuff, I am not trying to get pity from you all but they are just some words of frustration and helpless..
Thanks for the teachers who keep reminding me that exam is around the corner because I thought I was still having holiday!!!! But time flies, 2 years going to end soon and everyone is working very hard to get their A's. Though Ms Yeo kept nagging and scolding us, I knew that she was very concerned about us and it should be time for some emergencies call to wake us up... We upsetted Ms Ho alot and I really did not mean it, I am trying hard to follow the methods that she had given but it just can't work, maybe a few more practices will see some better results.
Bumpy bumpy road, never knew my 2 years can be so experiencing, at least I see the true faces of what you call the society.. And sometimes, I find that being kind to people does not pay, they will only find you easy to be bullied and order you to do all those stuffs that they don't want to do... People can be so cruel until I really want to cry it out, I never give those irritating face to them and yet they did it to me. Always hearing people say that if you love someone, just pluck your courage and tell that person. That person will be very happy and someone likes her? Nono.. to my horror, I found out that if that person don't like you, they will just avoid you or give you the face to ask you to go away... So sad, now I also know why sometimes when a couple broke up, the chances of being friends again is 0.00001% .. If this is really the truth, I might as well be monk, isn't it be better... I am really tired of these stuffs and will really hate myself.
Hate myself for being ugly, being fat, not lame enough, not clever enough... Just take a chopper and chop off my head please, omg... being sensitive also kills me...
Reality is really still far off from dream... and maybe I should just stop dreaming on these things because you won't get it.. Everyone can get it but I will still not able to get it..
Pathetic, pathetic, don't make me hate girls!!!!! Really very happy that my dear has given me so much of encouragement and cheering me up, if not I really think that nice girl don't exist anymore..
To Siwei, I know that you are facing a tough decision at this point of time, it is really sad to see you lose the smile that you used to have... I just want to tell you, no matter how bad the situation is, there is a nice pal who live next block who will help you get through the difficult times.. Smile!!!!

Maybe

2004-07-21T21:10:00.000+08:00

I am writing very slowly because I am tired after the matches....
Sorry to Janice, for my fatigueness has hold back the whole competition, I really want to play a real match where I am fit to play, I am just too tired to move around the courts after the consecutive matches....
No one likes to lose and I HATE losing. And I lost it today, 21-4? That is the margin... Amazing for me until I could not believe it. Can't blame Eileen, she was already so nice to partner me when no one wants to. Losing to someone who I don't want to lose to is very demoralising.....
2 more big matches to go on next wednesday and I tell you, I am not confident of winning any of them and my worst dream will come true---------Ending without a trophy.... So sad, after 2 years of hardwork, yet without earning some fame which I wanted..
Quite sad to be a man, quite a failure, a failure in everything.... GP can't pass, Maths can fail, Napfa can fail, being kind also fail... This 2 years had gone down the drain?? I really wish it will never happen...
Sometimes, I was just wondering, have I made any friends where I can talk to, share joy with and share the pain with me.. and no matter how hard I tried to improve myself as a friend where people will come and talk to, it just didn't work. Sometimes I was just wondering why I was in school when people just apparently walk past me without even tried to notice my existence. Pain in the neck? I think I am. Fragile? Who say man cannot be fragile.. Even the strongest man will collapse one day, who I am? I am just an ordinary man who wish that people around me will not be so hostile to me.
Never until today, I realised that man do change and they can change beyond your imagination. They can say one thing while do the other thing, I was just shocked.. Maybe this is what you call the true society, people are generally killing one another so that they can be the better one... Those who believe in eternal love, I am sorry to say that this 2 words seem to have been erased from my dictionary. Like and being like should be a good thing, but in the end I was the one to bear the pain. Am I so irritating till that even you see me, I say hi to you, you can still be so cold to me... So painful, each of these experiences I will never forget, it should have been sweet memories, but eventually this has become my darkest memory which cannot be erased..
If I am really such an idiot who allows people to make fun of me, I might as well be alone. I don't like to be alone, but all the things that happen around me has forced me into isolating myself to the crowd. I can't talk well, I can't tell lame jokes or make you laugh but I am still a human who needs concern around me. I really want to be part of the laughter but not the target of being laughed... Say I am taking things too seriously but the situation is really getting out of hand... Maybe I will be better if I am alone, maybe I will just leave this place and find the place where I can be fitted into, maybe I am the pest which everyone hates, maybe....

A new beginning

2004-07-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

After hearing the song At The Beginning, I had mixed feelings... This 2 years had been a very bumpy road, alot of obstacles which I failed to get past, alot of new experiences, and I met alot of new friends, learnt alot of new stuffs, quite an experience!!! And I had to say that I had matured.. Learnt to accept things which I never knew I would. However, I had to say that the old YongKang has gone, and I am given a new beginning, a 3month of change which will determine my future, I am not going to slack my whole life again!!! What a change, never knew I could slack until this extend, can be quite scary.. And one thing I know, once you slack too long, you can't motivate yourself to study again... OMG, at this stage of life, slacking will kill me!!!. So I am giving myself a chance to redeem myself by putting my focus on study and building up my body...hehe, quite sick of this fat ugly body...
Let this be a new beginning for me and also for the people around me, I hope that we can work hard together and reach the ultimate aim of doing well in A level..
Let's talk about the dance concert Rapture yesterday. I am very happy that I had chosen to go for the concert because the concert was brilliant. Vivian dance real well and my cousin who was a guest performer representing TJC did well too.. The surprise was indeed a surprise, the teachers were dancing to the hot song woohoo, never knew that Ms Tan could dance so well lol. Big applause for the teachers, their hardwork we appreciated and maybe we will work harder to return them a favour haha
Also, the break dance was amazing, maybe better than Energy's move, they were really flexible and I was full of admiration, cause I knew that I could never do any of the move. Anyway I had fun and it was all worth it for just $10. Thank you dancers for giving us such a wonderful performance, I knew that they had practiced very hard for the concert and I must say well done Saints!!!

Dull

2004-07-12T19:34:00.000+08:00

finally, a new look is out!!!.. My blogskin has changed, hope it is better..
Aniway, life for me seem to be getting worse and worse, BT2 was horrendous, a pass in Chem could not heal my pain for Maths.. GP=Goner Paper, what has become of me...
Useless, useless and useless, i think even a piece of toilet paper is more worthy of its value..
Pessimistic I am, but this seem to be becoming a fact. Why am I still such a stranger to my own classmate, am I so irritating? Am I such a failure?
With Intra College badminton coming, I should be happy, yet I am not. Am I destine to be a player that will never be recognise? Am I just an extra player who is of no use to the team, for all the years I had played, I never knew that I would have to reach this state, maybe it is time I call it a day. A back injury has changed my future drastically and I can never look back at the good old days..
YongKang will forever be forgetten by the world

朋友

2004-07-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

第一天　见到你
我们还　很陌生
不过你走过来打声招呼　
你好吗
从那天起我们成了好朋友

在讲堂　在课室
在食堂　在操场
一起欢笑　一起玩闹
是最好

当你考试考得非常差
心情就像天气那样糟糕
别难过
你的同学都在你左右
给你鼓励给你在加油
不要气馁不要放弃

有快乐　有悲伤
有痛苦　有烦恼
不管功课堆积如山
要赶完
但学习的道路还很远长
向前闯

能够相逢真的不容易
所以大家一定要珍惜
这友谊
抽空一起出去走一走
好过呆在家发白日梦
打电话向朋友说问候

又过了　另一天
我们要　分开了
两年的同窗　
酸甜苦辣　都尝了
熟悉的脸孔
一一浮现在　我脑中
感谢你陪我
走过最艰难　的时候
的时候
＃一定要珍惜　眼前所有的
好朋友
好朋友　（Repeat # 2X）

This could be my last song before I prepare for A level, this is dedicated to all my friends in SAJC, hope you all will remember me as a friend. This is the song by Robbie William, She's The One

真爱

2004-07-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

别人都说这是不可能　
就请你别整天都在发呆
心动不如现在就行动

不要以为没有人跟你争
你就可以不采取任何的主动
最后让机会溜走的人是你

#爱一个人就要放胆的去爱
畏畏缩缩的人永远都得不到爱
要用双手去争取自己未来
美丽花朵总在下雨后绽开
昙花一现失去了不再会开
爱情失去了想找也找不回来

慢慢一步一步靠近她
千万不要急着想去约会她
那否则将可能前功尽弃　功亏一篑

缘分这事真的弄不明白
放弃之后却又无缘无故跑出来
这次绝不把她双手放开　守护她身旁#

This is Utada Hikaru First Love, do sing along with my midi

爱你却开不了口

2004-07-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

孤单的走在大街
寂寞的弹着吉他
我偷偷的　从远方望着她的背影
我却不敢　走到她面前说哈罗
我知道这千载难逢的机会
可能不会再有

# 爱一个人绝不能够懦弱
否则换来永远遗憾
爱一个人就要鼓起勇气
这样才能换来真爱

天上的乌云密布
叶子从树上飘落
而又过了1年365天
我还是　不敢向她表白
因为我害怕被她拒绝
朋友也没得当＃
　
最后我忍痛放弃了她
也许这是最好的安排＃2X

This is my chinese version of I knew I loved you

Sad

2004-07-03T12:34:00.000+08:00

For my long absence, I am back from BT2..
Though it is just a few days of exam, the amount of work to study and to vomit out during exam is too much....Very sad lar, my maths had done very very badly beyond my imagination but I assure you that it will be the last time you ever see my lousy maths result... Econs is quite manageable but I still cannot write fast and think fast at the same time, that is why I always cannot finish a whole essay.. Worst of all, GP!!!! Everyone is complaining about the comprehension, hard to understand and a very difficult summary accompany with an equally headache application question.. For chem, finally I am able to think more and write abit more than any of my chem exam, a big progress hope that I can pass this time
Not a really good week for soccer world, shocks after shocks until I can't take it anymore... No doubt Greek are playing fantastic football that I think even the best team in the world cannot break them down, their defence are just to tight for any good player to dribble around and create chances. First match and the last match having the same opponents playing, quite rare and I don't intend to watch, so boring..... What a way to end the Euro 2004, haiz Big Nations Buck up, especially Germany since they are hosting the next World Cup
Yesterday, Our class had an outing to Sentosa, as expected, only 7 turned up and this was always the number of people that will turn up for the outing, really disappointed, can our class people be more bonded and please come for the outing, the time we have together will be just a few more months, can't they treasure it more, friendship are are to come by and being a class, it is fate, why make it so hard to be even talking to one another???

KL

2004-06-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

Hi I am back, let me tell you more about your trip, it had given me many first time experience and I was glad that I was on this trip
This is my first time visiting Batu Pahat and KL and it promised to be more fun than I expected.
Firstly at Batu Pahat, first time crossing the road like crossing hell like that, cars just zoom at high speed regardless you are standing in the middle of the road. You must always be on alert if not the car will really knock you flying...
Secondly, my first time playing badminton in Malaysia, and the place was like an oven, but I must say that the courts were well maintained...Not the biggest hall in Malaysia but it can contain 12 courts which was very amazing and you would be feeling tired if you are running around the courts for warm ups..
Thirdly, although I had played quite a few Malaysian during Yonex Sunrise competition, I had never won any of them because they were really very good. Finally on this trip, we got to play against some of them and I actually won the doubles, the feeling was sweet..

Next, we went to KL and it was the first time I took the Malaysian taxi, gosh, how I wished it was in Singapore, they anyhow charge you and if you never said a price before hand and ask for the meter, your head will sure be chopped off...
In Singapore, I never dare to play those Calbury Inverter or roller coaster because I can't overcome my fear but to my surprise, I actually played those in the Theme Park in Times Square, thinking of the feeling of hanging upside down from 4 storey high for 5 secs were quite scary. Though the roller coaster seemed less scary, it was the largest indoor roller coaster would freak you out, I played it twice with my eyes closed at some parts of the turn especially the loop lol.. Really must thanks the pal for encouraging me to play.

Thirdly, eating supper at the roadside stall was quite shiok... In Singapore, the nearest would have been Chinatown but the price was too steep and food too little, in KL, the fried Kway Tiao, Carrot Cake, Oyster Egg and Satay only cost less than 8Rm for the first 3 and 12Rm for 20 sticks of satay... But at that place met some weird people and things... On our way to the food stalls , there was 1 indian man sleeping outside a shop house and to tell you the truth he was sleeping since morning, if you never observed well you might have thought he was dead....Gosh.. Also, ever decorated your house with lanterns, it may seem nice but if it was hung outside the house and there were more than 30 lanterns hanging, it could be scary.... Also, a young little girl holding her grandmother walking on the street begging for money, they were very pitiful, the grandmother was like disfigured though it don't seem to be caused by acid...

Anyway, it was fun but tiring trip, it would always be remembered by me because this was the first badminton trip and possibly the last for me and I am really grateful that Janice had organised it, though there were some problems along the way, it was solved eventually and I must say that our coach Mr Chong is the best, without him, alot of activities could not have happened.. thanks everyone in the team and I knew that I am Once A Saints Badminton Player, Always A Saints Badminton Player..

Malaysia

2004-06-21T14:48:00.000+08:00

Hi PPle I am back in Singapore yesterday but I was too tired to write the blog so I am writing now..
What a fruitful and wonderful trip I had.. How I wish the trip can be longer and the exam is not so fast round the corner...
Aniway,let me sum up the activites I had for the past 4 days

Day1:
Morning--- Meet at Lavender and preparing to go Malaysia
Afternoon--- Reach Batu Pahat and went to have lunch in a chinese restaurant, 7 dishes
lunch, check in at Pelican Hotel
2pm--- Bus arrived to bring us to YoungYoung Badminton Training Centre
5pm--- Training ended and returned to hotel to rest
6pm--- Dinner at the same restaurant
Night--- Shopping at The Store, cheap and alot of varieties
Midnight--- Watch Euro 2004 with tidbits

Day2:
Morning--- Breakfast in the hotel which serve Nasi Lemak, bread, cornflakes and eggs
9am--- Reach Training Centre again and play for another 2 hr
11am--- Eat at the same restaurant
12pm--- Check out and leave for KL
5pm--- Reach bus terminal at KL and took at taxi to Radius International Hotel which cost 15Rm where the hotel is just a 5 minutes walk
6pm---Gather at lobby and went to Lot 10 shopping centre to eat at the Food Junction
7.30pm--- Went and have some delicious sticks of food at a road side stall, then went for Times Square
8.00pm--- Reach Times Square and saw Ritchie Ren having an autograph session.. Went shopping then reach level 7 which was the amusement park... Pay 25Rm and you can play everything in the park.. We played a top spin game which was similar to the Inverter at Downtown East but about 4 storey high.. Then we went for the roller coaster which was the world's largest indoor roller coaster.. It was very thrill and exciting
10pm--- Took a cab back to hotel before we went to eat supper at the roadside stalls...
Ate Oyster Eggs, Chao Kuey Tiao, Carrot Cake and Satay, the food was so nice and the oyster was so big lol
Midnight---Euro fever again

Day3: Breakfast in the hotel which provides Nasi Lemak, Beehoon, bread, hotdogs, omelette and porridge
11am--- Went to KLCC to shopping, given till 4.15pm to shop, a very large shopping centre with alot of international brands, bought a pants at Isetan, and a shirt at B.U.M international.. the shirt is very cheap because it is buy 1 get 1 free, every guy bought 1 and we only pay 19Rm each which was only less than $10. Have lunch at food court then we went to take photos outside the shopping centre which was Petronas Tower.. The buildings was cool and we took plenty of pictures of it, how I wish I can stand on the bridge which was between the towers...
4.15pm--- Went back to hotel to rest and we went to the pub to watch badminton matches which was shown on the big screen
6pm--- Leave hotel and went to Sungei Kwang to play bowling and pool, at the same level, there were small shops around which looked like Annex at the Heeren, but the small gifts were cheap...
10pm--- Went to the roadside stall and had supper again yummy
Midnight---Euro again lol

Day4: Breakfast in the hotel which provides Nasi Lemak, Beehoon, bread, hotdogs, omelette and porridge
11am--- Went for shopping for presents and played pool
1pm--- Went to KFC and tried their cheezy wedges then bought an adidas shirt
2.30pm--- Check out and leave for Singapore
7.45pm--- Bought some food back and reaches Tuas
9pm--- Home Sweet Home

Petronas Towers

Posted by Hello

Before Trip

2004-06-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

All pack and ready to go woohoo... Passport check, racket check, shirt blarblar..
What a nervous day lol, 7 years since I last went Malaysia? Yah, this is that long, you will be shocked. That is why I am so thrilled about the trip.
Never in my life I had a badminton trip although this is quite a private one, I know I will love it.

Euro 2004 is hot now and I can't concentrate on studies lol, some surprise win and some expected ones... But this tournament vowed to be the best in these years...
And I had bet on the match for Czech vs Latvia... first time betting on european soccer
and i put $5 on czech win and a-h where a is for latvia and h for czech.. it is where latvia will score in 1st half and czech will comeback and win the game in 2nd half and I guess it correct woohoo $1 get a payout of $9.50 lol

Aniway last blog before I leave for Malaysia, hope you all visit my blog often and study hard for your exams tata

Trip

2004-06-11T00:03:00.001+08:00

If you found that I had not been updating my blog because I had nothing interesting to write so you won't find it nice to read.
Today the badminton people was sent down to meet the principal... This type of feeling was scary, you won't want to enter . We were sent down because of the badminton trip which was organised by us and would be looked after by our coach. But school was not happy about it as there were alot of implications about the trip and we were scolded by her for telling our parents that it was a school trip which it wasn't. She was very upset and irritated and said that we were a bunch of no thinking student. She went on to say that since we knew school won't allow the trip yet we went on and prepared for the trip was seen as act of rebellious. These words really made us very sad.
We knew we were at the wrong but there should have no reason for saying us as rebellious,
if we wanted to be rebellious, we would have burnt the school down(just joking)
Anyway, we just got our schedule and we would be playing badminton at Batu Pahat and the remaining 2 days we will be going to KL to eat,sleep,shop...haha
But we will be bringing our work to go there and mug lol, weird right but so much time to shop, might as well stay in the hotel and study lol.
By the way I have added The game, Guess the Number... Feel free to play it, it is very fun,tata

PC show

2004-06-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

Every June and December.. there will have a PC show where all the latest gadgets will be displayed and sold. It seem that PC show is slowly becoming a digital camera show. The different brands and models are all sold at a discounted price and also came with freebies, such a SD card, battery, tripod stand... It is really attractive.
I really like a model alot and I wanted to buy it, but my parents did not allowed..
really very sad as the model is very good, just won an award in April.. With a 3x optical zoom and 4x digital zoom, it is quite good for beginner, and with alot of good functions, it is really worth it but the price indeed was abit steep which was $549..
Could have bought a Xbox with lot of games...But I really love photography which nobody understand it.. Always say that the camera will be used for a while only, not worth the price, but it is to take memory, memory that will last forever, once you miss that shot, you can never get it back... My old camera had spoilt and I am really very sad, alot of events coming up and I really want to have a camera with me!!!!
Look like I can't have photos of my Malaysia trip, Class photos, badminton pics and even Grad Nite!!!! If I have one wish now, it is to have a really good camera where I can take very sharp photos..
coolpix3700

Posted by Hello

Right Here Waiting

2004-06-05T10:04:00.000+08:00

我选择逃　谁能了解
你说逃避不是唯一
我听到你　呼唤我
让我从梦中醒来
如果我当初明白
你就会在我身边

＃不管在哪里　我都深爱着你
　我要和你一起走下去
　不管在哪里　我们的约定
　我要和你永远在一起

当时不珍惜　是我错
要打要骂我都愿意
请别离开我需要你
在给我多一个机会
我一定会好好爱你
一定会天长地久　＃

我喜欢看你的笑容　多甜美
还有那乌黑的头发　是多迷人　

我一定会好好爱你
一定会天长地久　＃

Hi

2004-06-05T00:35:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, the long waiting is over, my new unreleased lyric will be out soon, do visit often to check out, do give comments thanks alot tata

2004-06-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

Today is Vesak Day but I got no activity?
Jus like wat I did everytime, sitting around, watchin tv
And re read Harry Potter & the Prisoner of the Azkaban since
movie is coming tomorrow so jus refreshin the storyline.
Can't believe it, this movie is only 2hr 15mins?????
So short, I wonder how a thicker bk can be filmed into a shorter movie,
Hope the plottings won't disappoint me
Wanted to study today but slack again, omg, better start mugging if
not I can start packin to go poly!!!
Oh ya, let me tell you about the band concert held in jjc
Though I never went for the SA band concert, but I guess it was much better
since my junior gave some comments on yesterday performance
Ever seen a conductor dancing to the Shakira song? Well, it did happen yesterday
Why call it a band concert, if all eyes were on the conductor and the 3 dancers?
Felt happy for my frens who were performin, and Regina was the section leader and performed solo on a particular piece, well done!!!
I enjoyed myself entirely and I must say that with such a price, it is a bargain.
No criticism for them because I noe how much effort and time they had to put in for
performance, appreciate that. Such alot of ex Hongkah pple, got my senior and junior
Not bad, all changed alot and hopefully for the better..
Aniway, hope you all are enjoying this june holiday, cya

Hi

2004-06-02T17:38:00.000+08:00

Hi people!!!
Thanks for your support, my blog had received more than 10 viewers. I will try my best to bring you better stuff along the way, do check in often..

Jus added midi to my blog, the song If tomorrow never comes
Hope it will be helpful in singing my chinese version of the song

新歌发表－－－如果时间能停止

2004-06-01T17:00:00.000+08:00

当你离开后，每天我变得无所适从。
桌子上的尘埃没有人去打扫，我也懒得管，
凝望着她的照片，美好回忆不断涌现。
我是真心的，别怀疑你在我心中的地位。

＃如果时间能停止，我想对她说我爱你。
　但命运作弄人，一心要我们，痛苦下半生。
　如果开花没结果，要我怎样去接受。
　当初许下的承诺，绝对不会食言
　爱你一万年

只怪以前没把握，机会就这样的溜走了。
过去隐瞒的感情，从不告诉任何一个人。
所以我答应我自己，爱一个人不能胆怯。
我现在好想大声对她说，我真的很爱你。＃

如果喜欢一个人，一定要对她说
爱你到永远

This is the song from Ronan Keating- If tomorrow never comes
Hope you will like it

2004-05-31T15:12:00.000+08:00

F-15
Posted by Hello

hi

2004-05-31T14:41:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my very romantic world , nothing but romantic, hope you all will like it